The urge to create has not only been returned, but intensely magnified. I've already begun a few projects. A lot are re-creations of old pictures I made. But, I actually think I may have enough ideas and material to update regularly. But I do make that promise a lot, now don't I? We'll see, I'll try.

I ran into a few books that caught my eye. One on PHP, another on HTML 4, another on C++, and a book on the mental workings of a hacker called "Steal This Book!". Really interesting, obviously the first three books are learning differently programming languages. HTML and PHP are what most websites are composed of and C++ is a more useful all around one (Or so I think.. Not too sure on this one). Steal This Book seems to be an insurmountable fountain of wisdom and questioning. Can't wait to dig my nails into that one!

I feel.. Free.

NTA: No regret. No Remorse.





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CLUB/S!!!

Yes I have returned for epic fail! Updates will ensue as the urge to draw has been returned to me! D: Yaey!

Lyfe is going normally. Just got back from the first track meet! And now I'm tired as hell! So umm, yeah, really don't feel like putting the effort into making a good journal entry. SO......... YEAH! GIMME SUM MUDKIEPZ.

Today I begin a long hiatus. Yes I know it was leaving at first but I'm an indecisive bastard! D:

Life is hectic as it is and I just can't keep up with updating this place. I've tried and tried multiple times to get going and start uploading things regularly. But life just interferes. The only thing I really update is the journal. Which makes me feel like a Journal whore every time I use it. Everything I upload is just a little tiny add on to the mountain of stress that is my life. I really just want to get away from it all right now. Just kind of take a break. Get away from the worries for awhile and the stress for awhile. Which at this point is an impossible feat. But I'm at least going to try. It'll probably be a week or two. So umm, PH34R M3H T4C05!!!!!!!!!!








Cursed are we, living to make others happy, yet never achieving happiness ourselves.

Just when everything seemed like it was finally going good! This happened.

So we're going to first hour (PE), everything is going normal. No signs of a bad day. I get dressed into my gym clothes, walk out, do our exercises blah blah blah. After all that was done I found out we had a sub today. She said we're playing soccer, that's fine, I love(d) to play soccer! We play and play, get a few points. We're leading by a few points, my teammates hog the ball half the time. I got it a few times, it was all going pretty well. Until, one of my friends decides to kick the ball five hundred miles into the air. It started going straight to me, I go " Oh! Look, a ball! I'm going to kick it! " so I lift my leg as high as I can (Which is pretty high, I'm limber XD) and WHAM!!! One of my other friends decided to NAIL me right in the baby makers!

Needless to say I screamed. Wait, no, scratch that, I squeaked. It was a VERY VERY VERY sharp pain. So I limped over to the bleachers eyes bulging out of my eye sockets. And I sit down, the friend who kicked and another friend who was right there decide to come and laugh/ask if I was ok. Of course my response is " Yeah, I'm fine...", because it actually wasn't THAT bad. Until my eyesight decided to give out. I also became dizzy and started getting a HUGE headache. So I walked/waddled to the bathroom. I'm surprised I made it without half of my brain. Actually 3/4th's of it, 1/4 the baby maker that controls most of my thinking, and the other 2/4th's are incapacitated because they are focusing on the pain that was dealt to the other 4th. So I only had a 4th of my brain coordinating my movement. Which was definitely not enough. After a few hours I made it to the bathroom and sat down. There I sat for only the Lord knows how long. I rested my head on a stall and waited for my vision to return to me. After awhile it did, all was fine and dandy, I even got out of PE early for it! I was sore for the rest of the day. But yeah, it wasn't TOO bad. Until I realized that today I had to turn in my physical. Then I realized that I left it at home and would have to run. So, run, with broken baby makers, to my house. YES, GREAT IDEA! That is just DANDY!

So now I'm physically broken. Now I need to be emotionally broken for this to officially be the worst week ever! Meh, there's always tomorrow?

So, yeah I stole this from who stole it from who stole it from who stole it from

This is my first fad/meme/quiz/thingy. So please bear with me.

NARUTO
[ ] You're stubborn.
[ ] You like ramen.
[ ] Are foxes your favorite animal?
[ ] You're afraid of ghosts.
[ ] You're jealous of your best friend.
[ ] Are you a hands-on kind of person?
[ ] Do you have a crush on someone, who isn't interested in you?
[x] You want people to respect you.
[x] You never give up.
[ ] Are you tan?
[ ] Were you born on the 10th of October?

Total: 2 - Yay! I'm not like Naruto!

SASUKE
[x] You don't care about other people or their opinions.
[ ] Are you left handed?
[ ] You prefer being alone.
[ ] Are you cold, cruel or withdrawn?
[x] Are you talented?
[ ] Have you had to work on your social skills?
[x] Do you practice your skills?
[ ] Do you have a motive in you life that you live for?
[x] Do you feel like you're cursed? (Depends on what you mean by cursed...)
[ ] Were you born on the 23rd of July?

Total: 4 - T.T

SAKURA
[ ] You like the color pink.
[x] Do you feel like something inside of you is ordering you?
[ ] You and your friends have a crush on the same person. ( Who would answer this?)
[x] You're smart.
[ ] You have a five-finger forehead.
[x] You usually repress your emotions.
[ ] You insult people just to annoy them.
[ ] You're aiming for a medical career.
[ ] You grew long hair because of your crush.
[ ] Were you born on the 28th of March?

Total: 3 - Bleh, weak minded tramp..

KAKASHI
[ ] You read romance novels.
[ ] You like to spend time in the fields.
[x] Have you separated from some group? (Friggen preps...)
[x] Is your personality hard to describe?
[x] Are you often late?
[ ] Do you like to use something that covers your mouth?
[ ] Do you use the sayings: "A black cat crossed my path..." or "I fell into a sewer..."?
[ ] Is one of your eyes a different color from your other one?
[ ] You only have one hobby.
[ ] Were you born on the 15th of September?

Total: 3 - Wheeeee! So wait, he WASN'T reading pornography?!

ITACHI
[ ] You like red and black.
[ ] You wear purple nail polish.
[ ] You paint your toenails.
[ ] You've been the leader in a group.
[ ] You're a lot more advanced than other in your age class.
[x] You're unforgiving at times.
[ ] You judge people.
[x] You hang out with a certain crowd.
[ ] You have a little brother.
[x] You dress in overly long clothes. (Meh, depends on how overly long overly long is)

Total: 3 - Sheesh I am really evened out aren't I? O.o SASUKE IS WINNING SO FAR! NUUUUUUUUU!!!!!

GAARA
[ ] You like sand.
[ ] You could care less.
[x] You feel like no one loves you. (<.< >.>
[ ] You're alone a lot of the time.
[ ] You've made some sort of a symbol of love on your skin.
[ ] Your name means death in Japanese.
[ ] You have one reason to live.
[x] Your life has had a significant turn.
[ ] You have red hair.
[ ] Is you birthday on the 19th of January?

Total: 2 - Yay! I'm barely like him at all! I hate Gaara! *Happy face*

LEE
[ ] You believe in hard work.
[ ] You're decisive.
[ ] You have large eyes.
[x] You're a unique person.
[x] You've seriously decided to do something.
[ ] You have a huge crush on someone. (Seriously who would answer this?)
[ ] You have a person who you share a warm relationship with.
[ ] You have a black bowl-cut.
[ ] You've been in an accident where you were had little chance to survive.
[x] You like green.

Total: 3 - Hah, I'm not too much like bushy brow after all!

JIRAIYA
[ ] You write and sell romance novels.
[ ] Are you a pervert? (UMM... O.o)
[ ] Do you like alcohol?
[ ] You're somewhat famous.
[ ] You have long/white hair.
[x] Do you spy on people for some reason? (What? I like to observe!)
[x] You're specialized in some field.
[ ] You're over 20.
[x] You're in some way great. (By answering this yes I'm great at having a big ego.)
[x] Do you have an ambiguous way of thinking?

Total: 4 - Huh, I'm till wondering whether that's good or bad...

OROCHIMARU
[ ] Are you pale?
[ ] Do you like snakes?
[ ] Is one of your hobbies fencing?
[ ] Are you strong?
[ ] Are you sadistic, power-hungry and egoistic by nature?
[x] Do you use people as pawns?
[ ] Do you have a dream?
[ ] You don't feel empathy for other people.
[ ] Do you lust for someone else's body?
[ ] Are you over 20?

Total: 1 - *Breaks out into song* He's a cold hearted snaaake! Look into his eyes....

TSUNADE
[ ] Do you like to play gambling games?
[ ] Do you like snails?
[ ] Do you have a pig/pigs at home?
[ ] Are you afraid of blood?
[ ] Do you have an object that you believe brings back luck?
[ ] You're in the medical field.
[x] You're dependent on something.
[ ] You're a blonde.
[ ] Do you use rejuvenation creams?
[ ] Are you over 20?

Total: 1 - Eh...

SHIKAMARU
[x] Are you lazy?
[x] Are you intelligent?
[x] Is everything too troublesome for you?
[ ] You often play shogi.
[x] You like shadows. (Depends on how used)
[x] You pretend to sleep a lot.
[ ] Your IQ is over 200.
[ ] You wear a ponytail.
[x] You often use the saying "How troublesome" or something near it.
[ ] Is your birthday on the 23rd of September?

Total: 6 - *Whistles* well he is my favorite character...

SHINO
[ ] Do you like bugs?
[ ] You prefer eating salad.
[ ] You don't like tofu.
[ ] Your personality is quiet and mysterious.
[x] You hate food with strong aromas.
[ ] Do you collect bugs?
[ ] Is your favorite saying "Trump card"?
[ ] Do you use sunglasses a lot?
[x] You don't tell much about yourself (Only to a select few people...)
[ ] Is your birthday on the 23rd of January?

Total: 2 - Pleh

HINATA
[ ] Are you extremely shy?
[x] Are you a bit insecure about yourself?
[x] Are you trying to improve some of your skills?
[ ] Do you feel like your family doesn't appreciate you?
[ ] Do you hate your cousin?
[x] Have you had a crush on someone for a long time now? ( I would be worried about her seeing this, but I'm pretty sure she already knows.)
[x] Knowing someone has increased your self-confidence. ( I always think " Well at least I'm not Isaac!)
[x] You make some mistakes.
[ ] You have violet hair.
[x] You don't give up easily.

Total: 5 - Ah she's also one of my favored characters. ( I'm not cheating, I swear!)

IRUKA
[ ] You have a scar on your face. (not easily seen)
[x] You worry about other people.
[ ] Is your favorite word "believe"?
[ ] Do you like dolphins?
[ ] You and your friend have a similar past.
[x] You're kind by nature.
[ ] Is your hobby the hot springs?
[ ] Is you blood type B?
[ ] Your favorite food is ramen.
[ ] Were you on on the 26th of May?

Total: 2

NEJI
[ ] Are you an exceptional student at school?
[x] Are you frighteningly good at something?
[ ] You're a genius.
[ ] Your personality is confident and some what stiff.
[x] You don't show your emotions. (Misleading is fun)
[ ] You believe you cannot change destiny.
[x] Someone has influenced your way of thinking.
[ ] You do things seriously.
[ ] Do you feel like you can see through people?
[ ] Do you come into terms with your cousins?

Total: 3 - ECK, Neji = BAD

KANKUROU
[x] You have two siblings.
[ ] You're tough by nature.
[ ] You afraid of your brother/sister.
[ ] You like to fix things.
[ ] Your hobby is puppets.
[ ] You like to paint your face.
[x] You hang out with a lot with your brother/sister.
[ ] You don't talk much. ( Haha, cannot be shut up)
[ ] You use purple make up.
[x] You have brown hair.

Total: 3

Naruto - 2
Sasuke - 4
Sakura - 3
Kakashi - 3
Itachi - 3
Gaara - 2
Lee - 3
Jiraiya - 4
Orochimaru - 1
Tsunade - 1
Shikamaru - 6
Shino - 2
Hinata - 6
Iruka - 2
Neji - 3
Kankurou - 3

Hah, I'm happy with how it turned out I guess. Though I really don't see too much Shikamaru or Sasuke in me. Answered as truthfully as possible! Lol, fitting that I'd also end up being most like a girl XD.